Posted 9 months ago
Posted 11 months ago

To much abuse

I’m homeless.
I’m cold I’m hungry
I’m alone , I’ve done that many Embarrassing ,Regretfull Shamefull Retarded things that you couldn’t imagine.
One minquite I love my life next minute the ill thoughts come back.
I was raped when I was a child.
I got into drugs
Got myself in an abusive relationship.
Got off drugs
Been in the hospital once already for Overdose and trying to kill myself .
Its always one refuge after the other.
My mum hates me.
My dad is messed up.
Noone likes me and my reputation is so bad I might as well kill myself .
I’ve had a miscarriage
I’m depressed
My partner is always in and out of jail
And I don’t know how much longer I can do this for.
I already struggle to support myself
I’m a mess, a freak and a loser
I want to die, but I’m scared to die(I know I sound stupid but it’s a horrible feeling, I’ve overdosed for )
I have nothing to live for.
I’m a freak of nature.
I’m a nobody
I’m scared and I’m alone
I want to end all this pain and suffering once and for all.
I’m sick of crying all the time,living on the streets all the time, getting flashbacks of rape.
It hurts. I can’t live like this anymore
I want to take myself away
:(

Posted 11 months ago
Posted 11 months ago

you-want-a-song-of-glory:

The Manson Family

I love the Manson family

Posted 11 months ago

Courage

  1. told another lie today
  2. And I got through this day
  3. No one saw through my games
  4. I know the right words to say
  5. Like "I don't feel well"
  6. "I ate before I came"
  7. Then someone tells me how good I look
  8. and for a moment
  9. For a moment I am happy
  10. But when I'm alone
  11. No one hears me cry
  12. I need you to know
  13. I'm not through the night
  14. Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the
  15. light
  16. I need you to know
  17. That we'll be okay
  18. Together we can make it through another day
  19. I don't know the first time I felt unbeautiful
  20. The day I chose not to eat
  21. What I do know is how I changed my life forever
  22. I know I should know better
  23. There are days when I'm okay
  24. And for a moment
  25. For a moment I find hope
  26. But there are days when I'm not okay
  27. And I need your help
  28. So I'm letting go
  29. I need you to know
  30. I'm not through the night
  31. Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the
  32. light
  33. I need you to know
  34. That we'll be okay
  35. Together we can make it through another day
  36. You should know you're not on your own
  37. These secrets are walls that keep us alone
  38. I don't know when but I know now
  39. Together we'll make it through somehow
  40. Together we'll make it through somehow
  41. I need you to know
  42. I'm not through the night
  43. Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the
  44. light
  45. I need you to know
  46. That we'll be okay
  47. Together we can make
  48. I love this song
Posted 1 year ago

I need to get away
I need to escape
I wanna see a better day
I need to eat
I need to sleep
But I can’t, I feel so weak
I want to be free
I just want to be happy
Just let me be
This illness has a hold of me
Its making me insane
All I feel is pain, I’ve got nothing to gain
I’m a train wrek
I’m a mess
I’m insane I confess
But I’m not at my best
I just need my control back
I need the love you lacked
I need you to want me back
Mother why
Why you make me so sad
I’m going back to being bad
Whore is all I am
And drugs is all I know
..

Posted 1 year ago
Posted 1 year ago

Miss sadist. The Ex the end

This anger I have towards you is just so intense. I just have to look at your deceiving eyes and I want to rip your eyeballs out. You don’t deserve to see. I can listen to you start to talk lies through your teeth.and I want to stab your tongue out. You don’t deserve to speak. You only listened to me when you wanted to. So I want to chop your ears off from left to right. Listening to you breath deep and heavily through your nose in your sleep annoys me as you don’t deserve to breathe the air I breathe.and I want to gladwrap York face so tight,I won’t hear you breath ever again. This is my life now. Your going to be my puppet now. And all your worst night mares are going to come true. Why would you leave me? Why did you hurt me ? Well it’s your turn now to be punished and when I punish you before you can apologise your b in your grave,if you make it that far

I’m going to be satisfied

Posted 1 year ago

She’s been a rape victim a domestic abusive survivor ,but y does she still choose to stay. Because she just wants to be loved.

Posted 1 year ago

abused

i can’t sleep, all i do is think, about all the bad flash backs, and memories of you and i, i think about how much you hurt me, but how much i want you to hurt me again, i miss it, you literly make my heart ache, its a strange feeling
and knowing that only you can do this. i fell madly in love with him and throughout the whole relationship he treated me like an object and a joke. he undermined me, critisized me, devaluated me, diminished me, mimicked me, mocked me,violated me, harrased me, stole off me, intimidated me, lied from me, abused me, and devoured me. it hurts my aching heart just thinking about him.i feel like the tourcher traumatised me, but the ****** thing is i am madly in love with him. im in love with his pain, and charm. its like im yearning for him. all the psychological abuse has messed with my brain leaving me so unstable. and being off all drugs for a year and 6 months brings back ALL the memories.i dont know if its the serouquel messing with my mood, because i abuse the drug. i get emotional reaction i get headaches out bursts of crying etc. at this piont i feel like im relapsing i need to escape this memory. its haunting me but i want him so bad. its taking control of my life to the point where im going insane with out him. ive seriously lost who i am. my emotions are wild.i cant relate to anyone. none understands me.i hate myself